This is what I sound like when I'm sick
I watched the entire 2nd season of Veronica Mars on Netflix. I can’t explain the finer points of the plot, since I was sort of staring blankly at the screen and drooling lightly for parts of it. I don’t understand why she keeps dating Logan. I mean, really? The guy wears that surfer boy necklace all the time. He’s all racist to Weevil. And clearly, it’s not going to end well, his family is the biggest mess ever and he’s not even in therapy. But I can’t help wanting a little to be a girl detective.
(see how cool? that camera would eat my camera for breakfast. source)
I am still sick. That’s why I don’t have anything interesting to say. When I’m sick I can’t think straight, and I don’t do anything. It’s a bad combination for being an interesting person. Or maybe it’s a good combination, in a way, when you think about me trying to climb a ladder to fix that stupid bulb on the ceiling or attempting to argue a case in front of the Supreme Court.
When I’m sick I have these crazy dreams. It makes me think all these unoriginal thoughts about dreams like, “What are they, really? Do they mean anything?”
There was one about painting these two massive canvasses, side by side. Images of wizards working magic appeared on them. They had dramatic poses and their expressions were intent. The light of the magic was red on one and blue on the other and I was stunned by how gorgeous they’d come out. The paintings, not the wizards themselves. I thought, “I’m going to take a photo and put this up on my blog tomorrow.” Yeah, that didn’t work out. And it’s maybe a little pathetic that I have dreams about putting photos on this blog. Is this a sign that I need to get more of, y’know, a “life”? No conclusive evidence yet.
And then I had this dream that Bear and I bought out first house. It was out in the woods. It was really a cabin, and the doors wouldn’t close. It was night, and spooky, and it was impossible to lock the front door or even close it properly. I had this sinking sense that we’d made a big mistake. I was thinking, “We can’t just break the lease, we bought it!”
I think this dream was about my fear of home ownership. It might also be about my desire to remain young and carefree and urban-dwelling and cool and fashionable. All of which I definitely am. A little. Especially the last two.
I also read David Brooks’ Bobos In Paradise finally(which is really good if slightly outdated and had some seriously hilarious bits about how all the rich people want to have a summer home in Montana so they can go there and write about communing with the sky) and an Agatha Christie novel.
I updated my resume. I didn’t impress myself that much.
OH, GOD. WHY DO I DISPLEASE YOU SO? MUST I CONTINUE TO BE PUNISHED?
Being sick is so boring. Even when the books are good and Veronica Mars is solving crime right and left in her perky little outfits with her snappy little comebacks.
Whenever I get sick, I try to tell myself that it’ll give me all this time to chill out and read the stuff I’ve been meaning to read and think about the stuff I’ve been meaning to think about. But it has never once worked that way. Instead, I lie here stewing in my misery, with my thoughts clotted and clogged in my head, unable even to enjoy eating. And when you can’t enjoy food? Well, for me there’s not much to salvage about the situation.
You know what else is annoying? I’m starting to think things like, “Veronica Mars has such thin arms. I wonder how much prettier I’d be if my arms were like that.”
I need to get better.
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Un-roast: Today I love my stomach. It’s about all of me I can see right now. And I don’t feel like moving.
Kate on March 31st 2011 in Uncategorized
poet responded on 31 Mar 2011 at 12:38 pm #
Oh hai, get well soon! I’m totally with you on the crazy details in dreams – I’m helping decorate for two close friends’ wedding reception tomorrow, and we have this plan to make lanterns from yellow bell peppers, and this morning before I was going to buy them I dreamt that the store was all out of yellow bell peppers, they only had red and green ones… tragic! (Luckily this turned out not to be true 🙂 ).
Mandy responded on 31 Mar 2011 at 12:48 pm #
I hear you, sweetie. I woke up with a sore throat on Tuesday morning, and had to cancel my appointments for the day. I kept hoping, each day, that I’d wake up and feel better in the morning. This morning, however, I threw in the towel and rescheduled all of my appointments for the rest of the week.
Bleah.
I detest respiratory infections, because just when I need to be able to sleep more, I seem to lose my ability to sleep easily, because my nose is clogged. I’m still in my bathrobe, because I don’t have the energy to shower. I want to go back to bed, because I’m wandering around in this fog of fatigue, but I know I’ll have trouble getting back to sleep. Plus, it’s tough for me to find a comfortable position to read in bed.
So, I’ll end up sitting on the couch, trying to read (library books, so I’ll end up using hand santizer every time I blow my nose, in order to avoid contaminating the book) and watch mindless TV at the same time. I’ll drag myelf into the shower about half an hour before my husband gets home from work, and then wonder why I didn’t shower before, because the hot water feels so darned good…
But…
It’s kind of nice to have a really good excuse to not do anything at all–like the laundry, or washing dishes, or picking up the clutter around the house. And my husband, dear man that he is, will call before he leaves work to see if there’s anything he can pick up for me on his way home.
I just wish I didn’t have to get sick in order to feel comfortable doing nothing. It would be a hell of a lot more restful.
Ashley responded on 31 Mar 2011 at 1:29 pm #
I hope you feel better soon! Instant Netflix is the best invention ever…my favorite sick shows are Lost, Battlestar Gallactica, and Brothers & Sisters.
Kate responded on 31 Mar 2011 at 1:31 pm #
@Ashley
I watched a couple seasons of Battlestar when I was sick for a week a while ago. I may be the only person in America who has yet to see Lost.
Jackie responded on 31 Mar 2011 at 1:43 pm #
I find that I do the same thing when I’m sick. I want to get all this reading/watching done because I don’t have ANYTHING else to do, but I just end up re-watching episodes of friends and sleeping. And I’m sure after watching a season of V. Mars, you now have “C’mon now honey, bring it on, bring it on yeah. Just remember me when we used to be friends. A long time ago, we used to be friends,” stuck in your head. Its almost as catchy as the Gilmore Girls and the Office theme songs. Feel better soon!
Kate responded on 31 Mar 2011 at 1:46 pm #
@Jackie
It’s so stuck in my head it may never ever come out again.
Layla responded on 31 Mar 2011 at 2:25 pm #
I love Veronica Mars so much. I was gutted when it was cancelled.
Jess responded on 31 Mar 2011 at 3:24 pm #
Ha! A friend and I just breezed through all three VM seasons on Netflix over the last couple of weeks…I can’t say it was a “good” show, but somehow I couldn’t stop watching!!
It totally brought me back. I mean, she wears chokers…and little vests on top of tank tops…gotta love it.
Jess responded on 31 Mar 2011 at 3:25 pm #
P.S. feel better soon! <3
Lilli responded on 31 Mar 2011 at 4:36 pm #
I hate that ‘ill’ feeling, but i guess i’m still young enough to be able to legitimately take days of without recompense, and i do occasionally overexaggerate my ‘ill’-ness, those days are awesome: just feeling a little bit blue nd being able to do everything i want to.
If it helps, i always find the best thing to do when one isn’t feeling very good is to watch trashy tv. I’m not sure what you have in America, (living in the stoneage means i have no access to american television in the UK) but i find something like the Jeremy Kyle show to be good at making me feel better about myself. Horrible towards other, but at least you never envy tehir lives. Trash Tv as reaffirmation therapy >,<
Anyways, i hope you feel better soon 🙂
XXX
Ashley responded on 01 Apr 2011 at 1:52 pm #
Actually, I didn’t watch Lost either until it was already over and every season was on Netflix. It’s great that way because you don’t have to wait until the next epsiode to air. I totally recommend it; I had never seen anything like it before!
Vickie responded on 02 Apr 2011 at 10:56 am #
Ugh! Why do I always think that when I see people with skinny arms? It’s a problem for me…